Sunday, August 1, 2010
Things I've 'Gotten Over'..
Lately, I have heard alot of slinging around of the perverbial " Get Over It".. This of course, directed at those with Adoption Loss issues, whatever they may be. So I decided to take a good hard look at myself, to see what if anything, I have gotten over..Here's what I came up with.. :)
To those who hurl that phrase my way, I say ..." I have" .. I have gotten over many things, and will continue to do so til they put me in the ground.
We all have those secret places we revisit , that still hurt the most and always will. Some things you never get over. Lost loves, rejections, regret.. The loss of one's precious child or their own identity should top this list, I would think...
I have made peace with many losses and I have also been fortunate enough to have some of the desires of my heart fulfilled as well.
I have lost material possessions, whole homes at a time, and have learned to be content with what I had left.
I broke the cycle of abuse, and I made a decision to love myself, despite the things I suffered..
I searched for answers and found not all, but some. And when others thought I was down for the count, I came up swinging.. And if I found myself in an awful and dark place, I did my best to light it up, or burn it down.
I like believing that Heaven is a big lost and found, where all you ever held dear, will be restored to you one day.. Items dear to the heart, family and loved ones, both known and unknown, and my precious animal guardian angel companions, that I miss so much even still. And even if it's all a fairy tail, I still believe it. I am not asking anyone else to believe it if they don't, but I do so because I am a Survivor , and a Woman of Faith.
I have tried to help change whatever I can, even if it is unpopular by large.
And I have accepted that some things are way out of my hands and not within my power to change. And I have decided to be good to myself and others regardless.
If that is not " getting over it " , then I guess I just don't know what is..